Going to the gym for the first time in years…

Trying to practice what I preach… Really enjoyed doing our ‘connecting with the body’s resources’ workshop at Leeds Beckett Uni today but afterwards I found myself feeling anxious and frazzled this evening. Partly because I haven’t been sleeping well last couple of nights, mixed with experiencing busy-public-transport-overwhelm twice this week as well as anticipating more busyness in the weeks to come.

So came home and felt annoyed with myself for feeling crap after a job well done. I absolutely love sharing my passion for bodywork and it feels incredibly important and meaningful so when I feel awful afterwards I can easily get a bit confused. But then I managed to get myself to the gym to calm my system down with weightlifting.

Getting back into this kind of workout has been a long time coming. And how I have missed it!

It’s been such a big part of my journey to coping better with life (and being me) and it brings back many memories. I prefer lifting weights using machines because I can focus on one part of my body and do everything slowly and controlled. I use my breathing very consciously (and very similar to Pilates or yoga practices) and I like using weights that are so heavy that I can only do 3×10 and the last set will make me shake. Afterwards I feel more solid, centred and grounded. And tired!

Dance; conversation starters 

With dance we can look at topics that can be difficult to talk about. Dance allows for new angles and for expressing the things that are beyond words.

Here is a little collection of things I have found fascinating and moving.

How can men and girls engage with each other in positive ways in societies full of fear?

Personal journey of an indigenous Australian ballet dancer. The world of dance often reflects the mainstream discrimination that happens in our society – dance can be very elitist and exclusive.

Dance can also be inclusive and bring joy to all of us. We are all responsible for defining what gets called dance.

Personally I think dance is about using your body for expression. It’s not about looking gorgeous, being super-flexible or having the fastest feet. I see any physical expression that captures my heart through authenticity as dance.